but my heart won't stop aching long enough for me to put all of these sad/lonely/painful feelings into words.... Maybe it will come to me later. I have been trying to write for two hours and I don't think it's going to happen tonight. The simple version is this: I have been feeling like someone is stabbing me in the heart for the last two days. I miss my baby. I miss having a baby. And I wonder if I will feel this way for the rest of my life. I hate this. HATE it.
Ben designed new bunk beds for the "girl's dorm" and "boy's dorm" in our house. We LOVE them!! We are almost done with all of the work, just a few loose ends left to tie up, but I couldn't wait to show off his handy-work. This is the girl set. We stained them with colored stain and we really like how that turned out. It's almost the color of cranberries. I still need to paint the boards that are attached to the wall. I'm going to paint them the color of the wall so that it looks like the beds are floating. :) This is the boy set while still under construction. We ordered new bunk mattresses, but they haven't come in yet. I will show you guys pictures when they are completely finished. We stained these green, it looks like the color of bamboo. The kids LOVE these beds! And oh the space we have now! I'll be back soon with finished pictures! xo, Sam If any of you make beds using these plans could you send us a picture? We ...
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You are in my prayers.
I cant ease the pain but I can always be here to help you get up and battle the next wave.
The pain never ends but it does get a little bit duller and easier to handle.
My love and thoughts are with you. ((Hugs))
My heart aches for you. I have never lost a child but in losing my parents at 80 and 88, both who had lived long wonderful lives and then losing my brother to suicide, I have learned that I may not get over it, but, by stepping out in faith, I can get on with it. God is Good. You are in my prayers.
Love, Carol
You can always lean on your bloggy friends. We are here for you.
emotional pain is so unpredictable...
praying now for you
Lori
Its times like this when our faith is tested, but don't ever think for a moment that God is not there. A few years ago my little daughter(Emma)was in a car wreck with my husband. My husband was fine, but my Emma died instantly.
I had never been more bitter in my life. I was angry at myself, my husband, and God. I hated everyone and would take no comfort. But a little while after that someone shared with me a verse that helped me.
Psalm 30:5
For his anger endureth but a moment.In his favour is life:
weeping may endure for a night,
but joy cometh in the morning.
I said this every day for six months. Each it gave more & more comfort. All I can say is that I know how you feel, and that God is holding your baby with love in his arms. Just as he's holding mine.....
Melinda Gates
Praying for you, I really am.
Kim
I wish I had discovered the Mikveh Project then.
www.mikvahproject.com
{{{hugs}}}
I know from experience that grief can blindside you and knock you off your feet. I pray today that the pain in your heart is not as sharp. {{{Hugs again!}}}
jenn
Psalm 73:25-26, 28: Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord GOD my refuge,that I may tell of all your works.
I just want you to know that this stranger is praying for you. I hope your pain will ease a little more with every day.
When you are ready, it may help to write about your experience. I lost my baby almost 7 years ago and it really helped me to create a website in his memory and share the story of his short life. It still hurts, but gets a little better every day. ((HUGS))
As the other girls have said - time will dull the pain and time will make the waves come less frequently and with less force but I can tell you that even as an old lady the pain still comes, the tears still flow.
Try to get outside to play in the sunshine with the kiddos as much as you can! Maybe you can use this solstice time of year as a science class for them - my kids are all grown but they still remember the things I taught them including marking where the sun hit at 7AM every Friday! LOL!! My son was 5 and the girls younger when we started doing this and it sparked a lifelong interest in astronomy for him.
That's all I can say - I know no words will help but maybe knowing there are so many people praying for you will.
from Sparkle