but my heart won't stop aching long enough for me to put all of these sad/lonely/painful feelings into words.... Maybe it will come to me later. I have been trying to write for two hours and I don't think it's going to happen tonight. The simple version is this: I have been feeling like someone is stabbing me in the heart for the last two days. I miss my baby. I miss having a baby. And I wonder if I will feel this way for the rest of my life. I hate this. HATE it.