I miscarried my fourth child one year ago today. I try to keep my blog a happy place, so I want you all to know that I am happy. I just felt too guilty about letting the day pass with no mention of that precious gift. I miss my baby deeply. I've had a very emotional year but I feel stronger. I thank God for bringing TWO precious little nieces into my life, Lily and Iris. They have such a special place in my heart. The moment I found out my baby sister was having twins my heart just exploded! My first words were, "your going to need me!", and she did. God never closes a door without opening a window. I have learned so many things in the last year and the thing that stands out the most was this, God opens and closes the womb, he knows just what I need, just when I need it.
I have never mentioned this baby on my blog before, but I want you all to know that you have helped me heal. All your sweet comments about my children and family are always so encouraging. There were days your little notes and comments lifted my spirits and helped me get through the day, sometimes I have read them over and over. Starting this blog has been a way of remembering and savouring the sweet little moments I have with my other three children. I have appreciated them so much more in this last year. Thank you all so much for your sweet words, just know that God sent you right when I needed you the most.
Love,
Samantha
Edited to add: On this day I was having such a hard time, I cried writing the post; but I also remember the comments every time I checked my mail, they made my day. Thanks.
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Prayers and blessings to you!
I LOVED your last posts about your road trip! You crack me up, girl...especially the junk food and the comments about the kids' clothes! Tell Tim I am e-mailing him a picture of our car! There are rednecks south of the equator, too! :) Have a good day!
I saw your post about the tree skirt you made and I can tell you where you got that quilt from, walmart and it Was cheap because I had bought the same one. Mine got cut up too and turned into chair pad covers(you can see them somewhere on my blog). I just thought it was funny how we both reinvented the same quilt.
Take care,
Tiff
Jessica
You are such an amazing woman. God does do everything for a reason, and in times of such pain its often hard to remember that,but you did. I feel so lucky to be able to share bits of your life through your blog, which has often helped to cheer ME up. I love your humor(especially when you talk like your kids), and think of how blessed they are to have such a wonderful mommy! Keep sharing, as "it's a good thing" all around.
God Bless You and Your Lovely Family
Prayers and thoughts for you and your family.
Kylie
Dee
xxx
Anyway, I sew for both of my precious girls. I am terrified to try crochet, but would love to try once I get up the nerve. I love your blog!
In His Grace,
Sivje Parish
Just wanted to say I love you and miss you and the kids. I wish I didn't work all the time so we could spend more time together and do lunch like we did before. I really enjoyed that so much.
You know I love you Sam, call me soon and we'll let Nanny keep the babies and go to your favorite place for lunch.
I love you Sweetie,
Aunt Wendy