I miscarried my fourth child one year ago today. I try to keep my blog a happy place, so I want you all to know that I am happy. I just felt too guilty about letting the day pass with no mention of that precious gift. I miss my baby deeply. I've had a very emotional year but I feel stronger. I thank God for bringing TWO precious little nieces into my life, Lily and Iris. They have such a special place in my heart. The moment I found out my baby sister was having twins my heart just exploded! My first words were, "your going to need me!", and she did. God never closes a door without opening a window. I have learned so many things in the last year and the thing that stands out the most was this, God opens and closes the womb, he knows just what I need, just when I need it.
I have never mentioned this baby on my blog before, but I want you all to know that you have helped me heal. All your sweet comments about my children and family are always so encouraging. There were days your little notes and comments lifted my spirits and helped me get through the day, sometimes I have read them over and over. Starting this blog has been a way of remembering and savouring the sweet little moments I have with my other three children. I have appreciated them so much more in this last year. Thank you all so much for your sweet words, just know that God sent you right when I needed you the most.
Edited to add: On this day I was having such a hard time, I cried writing the post; but I also remember the comments every time I checked my mail, they made my day. Thanks.