Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Perfectly Imperfect

I woke up this morning, after not much sleep, absolutely determined to get something done! For days I have been coming to the end of my day with nothing to show for it. Oh sure, the kids were all fed and taken care of, the house was somewhat clean (for having kids with colds), the laundry had been done and undone and done again, but nothing creative has happened aside from the little apothecary bag. I sometimes struggle with "mama blues" (I refuse to say the D word) during lulls like this, I've realized over the years that 
for me being a happy mama means balancing creativity and children. A lot of times that means waiting until they are busy or in bed to sneak in a little sewing time, sometimes that means leaving Daddy in charge for a while, sometimes it means that I include them in my project and we get creative together, and sometimes (like today) it means that I give up that vision of the "perfect" creative time and just take what I can get!  It's important, because it makes me happy, and when I'm happy I can handle situations much more gracefully than when I'm blue. 

So today I took a few minutes and arranged this mini office in my bedroom , instead of my lovely upstairs office, and I accepted the fact that I may have a sick kid or two (or five) next to me, at my feet, in my lap, i may have to stop and start waaaay more than usual, I may even have a little pile of soiled hankies next to me, but together we will get something done today.  

Daddy is bringing home take out (that's a nice treat!), mama is going to get this new pattern sent off to testers, children are going to lay around, watch more TV than they are normally allowed (since they are sick), and the world will keep right on turning! And best of all at the end of the day I will have a happy heart, loved children, something that I didn't cook to eat, and in a week or so a new pattern for you guys! It will all work out!

Oh look, my first visitor! Come on in sweet love, just snuggle in, mama's here. xo, Sam


Debbie said...

Looks perfectly Mama like to me!

Anonymous said...

Yes, it will all work out! Have faith, a smile and a great day Mama!

auntie said...

My mother used to say to me, "If momma ain't happy, nobody's happy!" If it takes letting off some creative steam now and again who's to say you are being a bad mom? The laundry will be there as will the dust and dirty dishes but the happiness of your family won't always. You go ahead and create. Praying that the littles get well.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for posting this today! I'm learning that God made me creative and a mama for these kids, and that to be a good mom, I also need to be the lady God made me to be.

Libby said...

Ooo what kind of pattern? Do you have a computer program that helps you? I always picture designing as a "crawling around on the floor with graph paper and a tape measure" sort of experience, not exactly conducive to mothering little ones, especially if they can crawl/walk.