We had our first hospital run this weekend. Baby Caffee tried to make an appearance Friday afternoon. By the time we made it to the hospital I was contracting every 4 minutes, after a Brethine shot and another type of pill, they were every 2 minutes. I was scared. At one point my heart rate was in the 140's, I was seeing stars, I had a pounding headache, I was contracting almost constantly, and they couldn't give me anymore labor medicines. They tried one last thing, Demerol & Phenergan to just knock me out. Thank God it worked! They started spacing out and by early morning they had me pretty calm. I need 3 1/2 more weeks to make it to my goal of 37 weeks, it's going to be hard! I'm dilated, thinned out, and I don't have the pump as back up this time. Another thing I run into around this time of pregnancy is that sometimes the risk of the medicines to baby outweigh the benefit in the case that they come early anyhow, so if I go in and I need help, and it doesn't work fast (like this time) the may back of and let me go. They went ahead and gave me the steroid shots that mature baby's lungs faster, so that is a comfort to me.
It's fight time! It's that point that I come to in every pregnancy of mine where I have to just fight for every single day. I was once told that for every extra day a baby spends in the womb, that's 2-3 days they are not in the NICU. It's uncomfortable, it's exhausting, it's hard on my family, it's crazy-scary at times, but it will soon be worth every minute! I took my knitting bag with me Friday, because I knew that I may need some distraction to calm me down. At one point during that miserable night I laughed when during one contraction I started slow breathing out of my mouth and knitting furiously with my hands and Ben said "Just knit through it baby!" Ha! Another funny moment came when I heard a nurse describe me as "the knitting red head". :) Sometimes those moments are like gifts, sent to calm your mind and heart with a little laugh, aren't they? I will say, I got that soaker done faster than I thought I would! Maybe we should look into knitting while in labor a little more? There might just be something to that! I will be back soon to show you that soaker, it needs to have the ends woven in and a couple of cute buttons picked out. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers friends! I feel so blessed to have them! xo, Sam