All these emotions...

Wow. Today is really the first day since the tornado that I have been home. I've tried to write at night when I got home from the church a few times but I couldn't put any of it into words, I thought it was because I was just so tired emotionally and physically. No, it's just too much. It's heavy. In the past two weeks I've been with hundreds of people who have just lost everything, some have lost family members, I've hugged a mama while she cried about losing all of her kid's pictures, I've loaded supplies into cars with no windows and seats covered in glass, I've hugged and cried with people who have lost loved ones, I've handed formula to a mama who had been out and she cried.....the mamas get me. There are army trucks and National Guard men everywhere, cars on the road that don't even look drivable, it's like a war zone. My heart hurts when I see these areas of mass destruction and the people who have lost so much, then on the other hand my heart swells when I think of our new little Zoe! and all of the people who have come together to help. It felt so good to be a part of the relief effort handing out goods and supplies with other friends from the church and to see our community pull together and get to work! I cried when I read THIS about my new little niece, and when I received over $1000 dollars worth of Walmart gift cards from Terri and Dawn at Fairytale Frocks to give to people in need, or THIS post by my sweet friend Laura, the sewing community pulled together too! There are so many emotions from one extreme to the other that I feel like I'm on the verge of tears all the time...happy and sad. I'm so thankful that God protected my family...it missed mine and my sister's houses by barely a half mile. Daniel, Cristina, Luke and baby Zoe are doing great! We have many friends and family that lost "stuff" but none lost their lives. We are blessed. So very blessed. I'll try to write more soon. ~xo, Sam