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Peace that passes understanding...

....that is exactly what I have. I have had a wonderful week since Tuesday afternoon. I have not been worried or fretful, not even weepy or sensitive, I am at peace.

I've just realised this week that in the last four years of walking through valleys I have learned a very precious lesson in faith. I used to pray for what I wanted and then pitch a fit like a mad toddler when I didn't get my way. I called asking God for what I wanted and believing that he would always give it to me "having faith"....but it's not....I've learned that having faith is being able to fully trust that He has a plan for me, and just like any father, he knows what is best for me even if it hurts. I don't have to run to him and tell him what I want, he knows the desires of my heart. Faith is being able to say "God I don't know why I'm here and I don't understand your plan, but let your Will be done....I trust you". Now of course I'm not perfect, and it took me a day or so to have enough faith to pray that prayer and mean it after the news I received on Monday, but ever since I did I have had the sweetest peace in my heart and mind.

Thank you all so much for your prayers! I have been so touched, I have an inbox full of the most beautiful comments and emails from mothers all over the world. There is no way that I will be able to thank each one of you individually, but please know that each one meant so much to me and my family. I just can't express how blessed I feel to have so many wonderful people who care about us! Thank you so so very much friends, your prayers have been so appreciated. Please continue to pray for us in the coming days. Love, Samantha

Comments

Pomona said…
Sam, you have brought tears to my eyes. You have come to the conclusion that I did in some dark days: we don't always get what we think we want, but what God can give us is peace - and the inner strength to face and survive our trials. Thinking of you - best wishes

Pomona x
November 6, 2009 at 1:44 AM
Renata said…
Sam
I am so pleased God has given you peace. You have gained such wonderful wisdom through all your trials. Been praying for you.
Renata
November 6, 2009 at 3:43 AM
Beach Mama said…
It took me many dark days (months?) to come to that same conclusion. I remember how relieved I felt to really and truly finally turn my sorrow/pain over to God and "Your will be done. I am listening please just let me know what you'd have me do."
Ten years later I have 4 children
(2 bio & 2 adopted). I wish I hadn't wasted so much time trying to control my life instead of letting God show me the promise and joy He had in store for me. I am praying for you and your family that God will continue to give you peace.
November 6, 2009 at 6:34 AM
julia said…
Giving up control is the hardest thing to do. I try so hard to pray that prayer and mean it. Sometimes I really do, but there are other times I'm hedging.
I am so glad you are at peace with whatever God's will for you and your family is. He does know best for us.
November 6, 2009 at 8:34 AM
Mama Lusco said…
Bless you! You and family will continue to be in my prayers.
November 6, 2009 at 11:33 AM
Sand and Sunshine said…
It's good to read that your days haven't been filled with worry. Take care, prayers for your family.
November 6, 2009 at 12:59 PM
Linda B said…
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Cor 12:9
November 7, 2009 at 1:03 PM
ezeldabeth said…
you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers
November 8, 2009 at 10:33 PM
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